Here come a spew of quotes about doors.
"When one door closes, another opens"
“Look on every exit as being an entrance somewhere else.”
“When someone you love says goodbye you can stare long and hard at the door they closed and forget to see all the doors God has open in front of you.”
― Shannon L. Alder"
“The man who comes back through the Door in the Wall will never be quite the same as the man who went out."
― Aldous Huxley, The Doors of Perception
“I feel very adventurous. There are so many doors to be opened, and I'm not afraid to look behind them.”
― Elizabeth Taylor
“Be an opener of doors”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson
“I’m learning persistence and the closing of doors, the way the seasons come and go as I keep walking on these roads, back and forth, to find myself in new time zones, new arms with new phrases and new goals. And it hurts to become, hurts to find out about the poverty and gaps, the widow and the leavers. It hurts to accept that it hurts and it hurts to learn how easy it is for people to not need other people. Or how easy it is to need other people but that you can never build a home in someone’s arms because they will let go one day and you must build your own.”
― Charlotte Eriksson, Another Vagabond Lost To Love: Berlin Stories on Leaving & Arriving
I feel the need to write about Doors for a few reasons. The first is that when I travel, I leave myself open to learn about the world and marvel in whatever it is I sense the Lord is revealing to me. This time in Cambodia, it was all about the doors. The second reason is a bit less contemplative...I saw a lot of really old, cool, detailed doorways within the ruins in Siem Reap and couldn't help it.
Before leaving for Cambodia, I was kind of a mess. Looking at options of my next year's decisions out on the table and dreading goodbyes of people I've grown close to and journeyed with, all that very week...accumulating at once, too soon.
Leaving the country to renew my visa to stay in Thailand, presented the perfect opportunity to make a quick trip to another Asean country, right next door to Cambodia. Of course when in Cambodia you must visit Angkor Wat. Although large with lots of painted reliefs, Angkor Wat is not as spectacular as many of the other temples aging back to 12th century AD in the surrounding area. I found that the less restored the temples, the more magnificent they were...adding to a sense of adventure like Tomb Raider or Indiana Jones.
My pictures say a lot.
This visa-run trip was worth it and I returned to Chiang Mai feeling refreshed and ready to make some decisions.
Anyways. Doors. Doorways are everywhere. I've come to realize that if there is an open door, we have to step through the doorway to know what's on the other side. Often times I am scared to allow change into my life. I see the open door and hover around it's edges waiting for the most opportune moment to step in, yet sometimes I just need to walk right through it.to see where the next will lead. I don't walk through those doors alone. In fact I'm carried through those doors, over the threshold by the one who already knows what's on the other side and helps me navigate the path to all the next open doors.
Doors have become a symbol of trust for me. I see a door that is open and I don't know what's on the other side, often anxious, unsure and curious. Yet, this is an opportunity to practice trust.
So here I am. Never imagining I'd be here in Thailand another year. Never imagining I'd be where I am. So. Many. Unknowns. Lots of grief of losing things: materials, relationships, "my plans" etc. but all I can say that I trust it's all worth it and walk through those doors regardless of the sacrifice because what is on other side is so, SO much greater!